Life: Four years into med

The last time I wrote something was ages, no, eons ago (back in 2013). I'm in my last year in Med school and I'm having doubts.

Was I meant to heal, or was I meant to lead?

One option for me is go to Law school after finishing my medical degree, and practice as a lawyer specializing in medico-legal cases. Option B is continue with my medicine, get a residency spot in Ophthalmology and bring to the Philippines the eye procedure I have been dreaming of since I was a small kid.

I don't really know what will happen. Weather it's option A or B, I vigilantly pray for Mama to understand.

On a more lighter note, I found I's youtube account. It was disgusting. To think that I actually fell in love with a person who would post a video about how crazy she is about her ex. Wow! and Yuck.
What have I done to myself!? Standards fell so low. Rock bottom, no seabed bottom. It took me sometime to realize that, and I promise myself that I'll just wait in God's perfect time, in God's perfect plan, and in God's perfect love for me.

I still cringe when I remember that there was a time that I would climb the stars just to be hers. WHATTAFVCK! literally KADIRI!

Moving on, I'm so happy that Ikee and Ninj are my duty mates. Well, they're one of the few things that makes me happy with my internship. I just love to be with them, and talk with them and just do all girly stuff with them. ;)

My international electives is a freakin mess. I haven't told mama yet that I might not go to Harvard because I was late in applying for the schedule change, a prerequisite to go there. She will definitely kill me.

I just remembered Vinnie now, and now I share his enthusiasm with watches. My, my. I want to buy them all. Lel kidding.

So, actually I'm just blurting out random stuff because my mind ain't working anymore, because I have been doing my report for tomorrow's con for 6 hours! FVCK SHET. haha

Till next time. I miss writing, more so I miss myself, my old self, the one who doesn't need anyone to be happy, a kid optimistic in all ways but none. I'll go back to that optimistic dude, and make sure that medicine/Break-up with I, never damaged me in anyway.

SO TUTTA!

-R.G

p.s next time I'll write it as GR (GO REGINA) or RR (Roland Regina) :)